I need a moment to vent because I am just having one of those days. Or I guess week.
I am super blessed because God has been working out wonderful things for my life right now. Jon and I got in the apartment we want for next year and even got in at the time we want. We found a place for our honeymoon. I am still waiting to hear back about a summer job but I have the possibility of working back at Verbinnens again.
However, I am SO frustrated with my Ed 422 course right now. My professor has assigned the biggest assignment ever and its due on Monday and I just do not think I am going to get it done in time.
Also, this past tuesday was RA appreciation day. And I was not appreciated...at all. I dont want that to sound like I feel I deserved to be. But at the same time, I try so hard to be a good RA. I was up till 1 AM cleaning on Wednesday night because we had dorm inspections on Thursday. Everyone else was done cleaning by 11:30. I clean people's dishes, I try to encourage everyone, I do my best to be a godly example...and I just feel like they could care less. Its like they expect it from me or something, which is frustrating. I dont think they understand that I am in my 4th year of university, taking education courses (which are time consuming), I am planning a wedding, I am trying to maintain friendships, trying to strengthen my relationship with Christ, and spend time with Jon all while trying to be a good RA.
And dont even get me started on maintaining friendships. I honestly am at that point where I feel like I have no friends. Its like I am at that place in my life where I am so busy and have no means of transportation and everyone is having fun and making plans and I truly feel forgotten.
I am not trying to evoke pity from everyone. I just really needed to vent.
I guess I am just stressed over getting everything done in time and done well.
Hopefully my attitude gets better soon. I will be praying about that.
That is it for now...
aw karen, i feel your pain. busyness is a huge stressor for me, i hate being busy. Your girls probably take you for granted..that really stinks..but they have some growing up to do for sure. You will get your work done for sure, Education classes are time consuming but if you need help with anything i might be able to help you with education stuff since my classes could be similar. okay anywho...hope this week turns out better for yah!
ReplyDeleteI underdstand! When I was an RA, my floor didn't do anything and then a couple days later I was kidnapped and taken to Denny's! I think my RD tipped off my floor because she had asked me if they did anything for me....
ReplyDeleteCongrats on getting an apartment... I have to figure all that out too!